Sometimes i do ask myself on " Does true love exist in this world"? Love for me now at this age, i think it's just a process which compulsary to exist in our life. Sometimes, we can't control ourself from not falling in love with someone around us but isn't it sounds forceful? Why can't we control the feeling? Somebody say "Yes, we can control our feeling. Mind is the Ultimate" Yeah! i do agree with this BUT only until a certain degree out of it.
According to my understanding on psychology, our inner feeling and our cognition is in different state or areas. We might use our powerful cognition to control over our mind so that we would feel better in some sense but i think that is just temporary. I think if we use mind to control it, one day it will return and disturb us again. It's just like kinda 'running away' from the probs. As what a counsellor told me, in Satir Model ( counselling theory ), the inner feeling is our most CONGRUENCE / TRUE friend. Our inner heart won't betray us. Tats why we have something so called 'EmOTioNs' in us.
When i slightly get attracted to a target, then i will start to program my mind dy. I start to say, i can't take this up. It will not have a happy ending. Sounds strange huh? how come i know tat it would not be a happy ending? yeah! it's a secret. i know the techniques on how to evaluate my own love experience. it's 100% accurate for me. u know why? coz i know who am i. i know my own threshold / limit.
Why life must be like that? Why can't just let me enjoy the rest of my life? i m turning to 30 soon. just a few more years ahead. why can't i have the rights to enjoy my life by doing what i wan? Why can't i spend more time in giving someone my 'love' and of coz vice versa. i m exhausted sometime. Mayb due to my body line shape and facial look, and tat makes me not popular and no demand at all. Well! i do accept on what i m now.
I just wish that there's a person who can really accept me and willing to spend time with me. Of coz, there's a few criteria that must be met by my future life partner. i will list out the criteria in my next blog. Oh god! could you pls just let me enjoy my life? i m a human also. i need love also. If everytime only i give love to others without charging it back, i will be getting more exhausted day by day and till to one day, i m dead becoz of exhausted in life.
Oh God! can u pls just give me OPTIONS in my life?
According to my understanding on psychology, our inner feeling and our cognition is in different state or areas. We might use our powerful cognition to control over our mind so that we would feel better in some sense but i think that is just temporary. I think if we use mind to control it, one day it will return and disturb us again. It's just like kinda 'running away' from the probs. As what a counsellor told me, in Satir Model ( counselling theory ), the inner feeling is our most CONGRUENCE / TRUE friend. Our inner heart won't betray us. Tats why we have something so called 'EmOTioNs' in us.
When i slightly get attracted to a target, then i will start to program my mind dy. I start to say, i can't take this up. It will not have a happy ending. Sounds strange huh? how come i know tat it would not be a happy ending? yeah! it's a secret. i know the techniques on how to evaluate my own love experience. it's 100% accurate for me. u know why? coz i know who am i. i know my own threshold / limit.
Why life must be like that? Why can't just let me enjoy the rest of my life? i m turning to 30 soon. just a few more years ahead. why can't i have the rights to enjoy my life by doing what i wan? Why can't i spend more time in giving someone my 'love' and of coz vice versa. i m exhausted sometime. Mayb due to my body line shape and facial look, and tat makes me not popular and no demand at all. Well! i do accept on what i m now.
I just wish that there's a person who can really accept me and willing to spend time with me. Of coz, there's a few criteria that must be met by my future life partner. i will list out the criteria in my next blog. Oh god! could you pls just let me enjoy my life? i m a human also. i need love also. If everytime only i give love to others without charging it back, i will be getting more exhausted day by day and till to one day, i m dead becoz of exhausted in life.
Oh God! can u pls just give me OPTIONS in my life?
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